tag.

you can only answer with one word.
difficult.

Where is your cell phone? - desk
Your significant other? - class
Your hair? - ponytail
Your mother? - vegas
Your father? - calgary :/
Your favorite thing? - disneyland!
Your dream last night? - wedding
Your dream? - london
The room you're in? - dark
Your fear? - dark
Where do you want to be in 6 years? - mom...hehe
Where were you last night? - home
What you're not? - warm
Muffins? - blueberry
One of your wish list items? - dress
Where did you grow up? - calgary
The last thing you did? - test
What are you wearing? - sweatshirt
Your TV? - o.t.h.
Your pet(s)? - None
Your computer? - love

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tag
ray, beth, leah, chels, dani

humanities.

in my humanities class we just finished studying baroque music.
im obsessed.
i love it.
i listen to vivaldi all day.
and handel.
and bach.
and pachelbel's cannon.
oh boy.

AND THEN!

today we learned about the rococo period.
seriously the most beautiful art!
i love it.
this is one of my favorites...

Along with these...of course.
i love her dress in this one
it just jumps out
it is so real
and beautiful
and i want one
and how cute is this?! sitting in the middle of a beautiful garden wearing a pretty dress with a boy reading you love letters with a statue of cupid? c'mon how, it honestly doesnt get better.
we only spent an hour on this period.
and i was so sad.
it was some of the most beautiful art!
lots of it was very much over done
but so beautiful
i love it
it is my new favorite era.

THEN
we started talking about classical music
i fell in love
the twinkle twinkle little star song by mozart
12 Variations on "Ah vous dirai-je, Maman"
wow
i love it!!
i love my major.

im going to disneyland tomorrow!
im so excited
i need a break from this city..or the lack thereof.
hooray for california! :]

confidence.

so i have this english teacher who is extremely sardonic..sometimes to the point of rude.
and he acknowledges it.
if you answer a question in class (as i unfortunately tried to do once)
he will immediately tear your answer apart and essentially make you feel stupid for opening your mouth.
i have a huge paper due in his class tomorrow.
it is worth 1/3 of our grade.
i was stressed.
really stressed.
it was a poetry paper.
i suck at poetry...and quite frankly don't like it most of the time.
so.
i wrote a quick draft of the paper and made an appointment to meet with him today.
i showed up to his office and he was already with someone from my class.
i sat outside the door for the next 35 minutes and listened to this boy get ripped apart.
i was terrified.
i even considered leaving and just turning in my paper how it was.
when he was finally done talking to the other boy, i went in to his office
the boy's paper was covered in red
"it's good to be torn apart sometimes yanno?" he said
sheer terror.
i didn't want this guy to read my paper and make me feel stupid. as if i needed that.
so, he read my paper.
after about 10 minutes, a few nods, and a few "good"s
he handed back my paper
the only thing he had circled was one place where i had put a comma in the wrong place
he then said "you are an excellent writer"
and i left
i smiled the whole way from his office to my next class that was a few buildings away.

now
im not bragging
(well i kind of am. but not in a cocky way..)
but yanno when something just gives you an extreme amount of confidence in yourself?
like, you finally realize that you are good at one aspect of your life?
that you are able to excel at something? it just feels good.

i got my itinerary for london today.
holy cow it is going to be so amazing.
some of the things that we get to do are unreal.
i cant wait to blog from london.
there will be so much to write.
i cant even wait.
78 days.
and counting.

2 days until disneyland.
i am ecstatic.

142 two days til i get married.
happy.

anyway,
after my last post, my cute love showed up at my house with a chocolate shake from mcdonalds..i wonder what a should be craving this time?? :]

lots.

LAME.
tragic news regarding the much anticipated disneyland trip...
IT'S SUPPOSED TO FREAKING RAIN THE WHOLE WEEKEND
are you serious??
lame.
im depressed.
i fear we are doomed to spend our amazing weekend in california like these poor fellows...in bright yellow (or blue) ponchos..freezing cold.
i mean honestly, look at that little boy in the yellow poncho.
does he look like he is having happy fun at the happiest place on earth?
nope.
not really at all.
sad.

EXCITING.
but on the bright side...
I GOT MY DRESS TODAY!!
it's bought and paid for.
yay
so exciting,
i have never been so excited to wear an article of clothing.
hah.



WONDERMENT.
this isn't a word.
but i heard it used once...
in a book or a movie or a song or someting.
so one day when i was googling pictures of london and some of the places that we would be visiting i came across this picture.
i did some research.
apparently it was the castle that walt disney used as inspiration while designing cinderellas castle.
cool huh?
i love castles.
i think theyre amazing.
i could stare at them for hours
sometimes when im bored
(NERD ALERT...)
i google castles.
and read about them
and the people to lived in them
and the crazy things that went on in them.
i think theyre fascinating
and gorgeous
and majestic
and intreguing.
and amazing.
seriously how beautiful is this gigantic white castle out in the middle of the trees on the side of a mountain.
can you imagine living there????
holy cow.
i cant.
it must have been amazing.

LOST.
okay. so, i never understood the obsession with Lost.
i watched a few episodes once.
didnt understand. got confused. stopped watching.
weellll,
lover boy's roommate got the first season on dvd.
and this was our tragic downfall.
we haven't been able to stop watching.
it's pathetic.
im hooked.

CHANGE.
dealing with change is hard.
making new friends.
letting go of other friends.
letting relationships go where they need to go.
thats kind of vague.
but its hard.
the end.

SUN.
i have looooveeeed the weather lately.
it has been sunny
and warm
and sunny
and sunny
and i hear the snow melting
i love the sound of dripping when the snow is melting.
it is probably one of my most favorite sounds.

COUSIN.
tonight i went shopping with my cousin addy. she's turning 16 in two weeks.
in some ways i envy her.
sometimes (only somtimes..) i wish i could be 16.
it's only 3 years..
but it seems like so long ago.
and it seems like life has gotten so much harder.
so different and so much more complicated.
anyway.
i love my cousins.
and my aunts
and my uncles
and my grandparents
i have THE coolest family in the entire world.
seriously.
tonight was one of the funnest nights i have had in a while.
i mean..hanging out with greg is always the funnest night...
but tonight was just a fun night with a girl..i dont have much girly interaction these days
so it was fun
she is so sweet and good and wonderful.
honestly, one of the best girls i know.
she is 16.
and she has life figured out better than i do.
she's awesome.
love her.

CHOCOLATE SHAKES.
random thought.
i have been craving one.
i consider myself a connoisseur (of sorts..) of chocolate shakes.
next to in n out, mcdonalds has THE best chocolate shakes.
they are delish.
like i said..craving.

MOM.
my mom is really sweet.
i love her.
i've been talking to her lots recently
(okay, well not lots..but comparatively to how much we've talked in the past...it's a lot)
lots of emails, texts, phone calls.
trying to get wedding stuff figured out.
she is smart.
she knows how things work.
she's great.

STUPID.
it's 2:22 in the morning
i am exhausted.
i was falling asleep at gregs house tonight
so i made him take me home early
then i decided to write a blog.
it makes him so mad when i do this.
sorry babe.
goodnight!

AFTER-NOTE.
84 days til london.
147 til bliss.

everything.

Wedding plans are coming along…but honestly, why does it need to be this much work? It is ridiculous. All of the endless counting and list making and calling and reserving and running around and trying on and looking and thinking and seriously now… it is a bit absurd. I don’t like it. Okay that’s a lie. I do like it! I love every minute of it…minus the list making. My mom is a list maker. She is good a making lists. Ever since I can remember, she has always has a notebook, in which she writes EVERYTHING (this isn’t really an exaggeration) and makes all sorts of lists. Me, on the other hand, I suck at making lists. And I think it’s tedious. Gag.

Anyway, I’m going to make the final payment on my dress this weekend…I am EXSTATIC (which by the way is my new favorite word). I seriously love my pretty little princess dress. I’m gona play hairdresser with Leah this weekend and we’re going to try to come up with an idea of how to do my hair…she is great, and apparently has a new idea that she wants to try, so we’ll see how that goes. I’m sure it will be lovely. I decided not to get a veil…cuz it was $160…and really, that’s a waste of money. So – we’re gona rely on having a pretty hair-do :]

My WONDERFUL aunt is helping us with announcements and pictures. My announcements are so stinkin cute. I love them…or what we have done so far. She is a paper genius… She is so good at designing things and making them cute. I’m lucky to have such amazing help.

I think I’m going to do Lily-something-ish flowers for my bouquet. I found some pretty ones on the internet… I still don’t know that. A bouquet is just another thing to hold…I’ll probably end up making Greg hold it cuz I’ll get sick of it. So. Who knows.

Last weekend we went to IKEA – which is possibly the most amazing store in the world…and picked out furniture for our cute little apartment. We picked a gorgeous bedroom set. I LOVE it. And there’s lots of other fun stuff that I love. Yay for having my own stuff…that’s mine…and that I picked and that I love and that’s mine. Hah.

On Feb 5 we are going to DISNEYLAND with ettie & gary & their girls. I CANNOT WAIT!!! Disneyland is my favorite…and with my favorite boy and my favorite little girls..it is going to be fabulous. I hope greg likes and isn’t disappointed by how much I have talked it up …but I don’t think he will be…how COULD he be?! Honestly.

I leave 86 days from today…(notice the picture at the top) and I don’t know how I am going to come up with the money that I need by then…haha. I was looking at my W-4 from 2008, and seriously, I don’t know where all the money that I earned has gone. Absolutely no idea. It’s a tragedy. Shakespeare should write a play about it.

Today at work we got new furniture. It makes our office look small and dark…we now refer to it as “The Bat Cave”. I am Batman and Ray is Robin. We have fun at work. I’m excited to go to London with her. I am convinced that some TV channel should follow us around with a video camera and film our trip. We are hilarious. I think we would make good reality TV. We have amazing adventures here in Provo…in the Bat Cave…imagine what we will do when we are let loose in the middle of London? Hooray!

We went through the Draper, UT Temple open house this weekend. It was so pretty. And there were lots of sparkly chandeliers. The Bride’s room was so pretty. I am so excited to get sealed..for time and all eternity..to this amazing boy that I found. I am so excited to go to the Temple. Yay!

Greg is incredible. I am so lucky. The end.

hamlet

1. i changed my major to humanities..english emphasis.
love it.
2. hate the snow
3. greg & i are going to disneyland in 2 weeks. the poor kid has never been. tragic. i know. i can't wait to take him there. they aren't kidding when they say happiest place on earth.
4. 87 days til i leave for london :]
5. 151 days until i get married...
6. it's 12:54 am. i have a cold. but I can't sleep. stupid.
7. i am going to pay for my wedding dress on friday..i am ecstatic. seriously the prettiest princess dress ever.
8. i have an obsession with the song "Bella's Lullaby" by Carter Burwell. amazing.
9. i have the best boy in the world. i could write a whole post on him and not run out of amazing things to say. seriously - i. am. THE. luckiest. person. in. the. entire. world. ever. period.
10. I CANNOT WAIT to have my own apartment. with my own dishes. and my own pots. where i can put them where they go. where they only way that they get dirty is when i use them. when the dishes get put away when the dishwasher is clean. when the dishes get put in the dishwasher when they're dirty. i am going crazy. honestly - i guess some people must have grown up not learning to clean up after themselves. it is RIDICULOUS. gahhhhhhh. okay. now that that's out of the way...

for one of my humanities classes we were assigned to listen to this. we had been reading hamlet. i think that this is one of the most though provoking things i have ever heard. it takes an hour. and one needs kind of a previous knowledge of hamlet...but. seriously its so amazing. it's about this lady who went into a level4 high security prison and put on this production of hamlet with the inmates as actors. it may sound nerdy...but im a total nerd. so. there we have it.

http://www.thislife.org/Radio_Episode.aspx?episode=218

different.

so...usually i don't post stuff like this.
im just not into posting churchy things
but
this is beautiful
i love the song
i love the artwork
i love it